Just back from Lawas... under the wings for more than 2 weeks... and now, i am not adapt to the condition here.. i am scared... i doubt that if i can live alone again... i lose my heart to go swim... to study... and i just wanna DO NOTHING!!! ARGH... how come... i become not myself... so hard that i found myself and now.. i lost me again... isn't that under the wings is good? everyday dunno need worry of anything... but... i am lost... i need to find me back.. step by step... but i dunno how... the first step will be 经得过试探。。。 last 2 days... i am totally in watching drama mood... i need to overcome that... X.x... and the most terrible is that... i lost the heart to praise The Lord!!! argh!!!! i dunwan... these days my mind keep appear of others songs than any worship song... am i die? if i die ady... how i find me back??? T.T
Lord... i feel so far from You... i even dunno how to comfort my dear friend as i lost my trust on you myself... T.T i am struggling... You know that... You saw that... please... help me... pull me out from all these... my mind is in war... i am so despaired... could i win?... could i wan to win?? Lord, please guide me, so that i dun fell from Your track... make me stay behind You and follow You~ I know, You will protect me and i know that, it is time that i protect my parents, i shall no longer under my parents wings as they need my wings for protection and i know that i will always under Your wings Lord!! :)
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